hey guys okay im in school right now.. im bored. im doing a lot better it took a while to actually realize what happened but i got it now. and im struggling sometimes but im alright. im doing good in school. w00p w00p. hmmm. i havent been doing much i miss the internet like CRAZY! you have no clue. im at Tech right now. man i miss it. i have been hanging out in my town lately with my neighbors and whatever. but yeah im going to go. cya <3

   <3 i love you dad <3

 RIP Dad <3   8/1/64 - 5/2/06 <3 <3 <3

 I love you so much

             <3 crushin on someone <3

   Kelsie

The day you left,
My world went cold
I cried my heart out,
And you left me to drown.
The darkness still lingers,
And I can't help but wonder why
You left me with nothing but a broken heart

I turn the music on,
There's a song about someone who died,
I turn it off.
No one gets it.
I barely spent time with him.
I want to be something we never were,
Best friends.
At the funeral,
We went to a church,
And I started to cry.
My face was drenched with tears,
I put a beautiful rose on his coffin.
Like a rose,
We wither way into nothing,
I started to cry again,
Then my brother
Gave a shoulder
To cry on.
I stood there,
Not wanting to leave,
Not wanting to move,
Not wanting to let go,
Unable to leave,
Unable to move,
Unable to let go,
But most of all,
Unable to speak.
Wanting to be with my father.
I sit there,
On the cold ground where he layed,
Wishing just to have a little more time,
To make it the best,
To see him for one last second,
I feel a light fall breeze,
And know he'll be with me,
I'll always miss you,
Kevin Dale Cornelius <3

hey guys... alright so i have been doing a little better i got a necklace with some of his ashes in it. its stirling silver... its a heart and i write in a journel every night so thats good... i was in counseling but now i dont go. not sure why but whatever. i am trying to get a hold of some people. but they never answer the phone. but yeah..i dont know i just really miss him but michael and other ppl r keeping me busy and happy. me and kayla r good friends now... so thats good too. but idk... im going to go....

*Kelsie

 I really miss you dad. <3... i love you so much...

the hardest thing is seeing cops bcuz then i get flashbacks of what i saw happen that night. it sucks big time.

hey guys... alright so kayla called me and its all alright now i guess.

i know that he is gone but it hasnt sunk in yet.... i mean i just cant believe he is actually gone. idk its hard to explain but i guess when it actually sinks in its going to hit hard.

it took forever to get everything ready for the funeral... it took like 5 hours. But it didnt bother me. my aunt also helped me and my g-ma.

thats all i have to say my mind is still crazy... thanks for all your support though. im sure everyone knows my dad and i were really close and stuff so i thank everyone for thier support <3

i sigh with tears in my eyes, flop myself
down onto my bead and whisper over
and over, "what did i do wrong ?"

We are afraid to let people go because once you let them go they may never come back.

you said you were gonna be there for me
whenever i needed you. and& when i needed
you most, is when you broke your promise.

*Kelsie

<3 i love you dad, i miss you so much. <3 8/1/64-5/2/06

i dont know what to say or do anymore. everytime i walk by the back yard i picture seeing my dad like i did the night i saw him laying there dead w/ a gun in his hand. i need to get out of this town. Last night i had a nightmare.. and my grandma told me im going to have a lot of nightmares and dreams about him... so i dont know... its hard thats all i have to say, but im going thru it.. and dont worry i will keep my head straight but, i dont know when ill be back in school hopefully soon enough.. i need to pass bcuz one thing my dad always wanted was for me to pass school and do good. so im going to make him happy. <3

Hey i just have a couple things to put in here but... i cant type too much bcuz i have to go down to my g-mas to do things.. all i want to say is Kayla.. u have a lot of nerve...u r a fucking bitch seriously.. u have known me for how long and u have known my dad for how long and something like this happens and u have to be a bitch and be like,"well what am i suppose to do.. perform miracles?" well i just want u to know that ur a fucking dumb ass bitch who needs to think about what ur saying bcuz what u said to michael is just stupid and ur just a typical stuck of cheerleader..

 And to everyone else who is actually u know.. caring... thank you so much...and i just want to add even some people who dont like me r showing thier sympathy...i dont know when ill be back in school tho...not sure.

You try losing a dad.... and on top of it all because of some dumb girlfriend, now i have to go without a dad... yeah try it dumb bitch. its pretty hard. and for u to say what your saying....yo fuck you bitch

im out

 I love you dad <3 8/1/64-5/2/06 <3

I dont know who all knew my dad that reads this.. but his funeral is going to be Sat. 12-1 for family and friends 1:00 is service time...And he is going to be cremated bcuz his face isnt in a great shape... just for everyone who doesnt have the story straight he shot himself.. so yeah.. thats the story... and its bcuz him and his gf got in a fight... and i saw police here and shit and i checked up on what was happening and i saw him lying on the ground dead... so its actually really hard.. i mean i know he is gone but i just dont believe it yet.. i had to call my family and shit bcuz no one even had a clue...

All i know is that i miss him and love him terribly.. and i wish she would have never came in his life..

hey people whats up.. nothing here i have been doing good.. uh my dad crashed his car..dumb right? yeah i know but my brother and i think he was sticking up for his gf and she really did it, oh well i hope he has fun paying and spending his time.. dumb alcoholic.. lol.. but anyways.. uh yeah i have been cleaning getting my moms house in order for moving and shit so yeah i have also been running around and having fun so thats always a plus. lol. but there is a little bit of anger happening right now with my baby... michael...but everyone has problems in a relationship.. right? yup thats right. other then this one thing... its all good.. he has changed a lot and we have been doing a lot better then we used to be so thats good. i spent like 5 hours with him yesterday it was fun... lol he was a pussy in the tramp. with zach.. lol.. but i had fun.. alot of fun... uhm idk what else to really say other then i love you baby and yeah ok bye

*Kelsie

<33 michael